one week.

So I decided to write about the moving and graduating process, because it helps me really savor it, you know?

Today is my last real day of college ever, in my life. And of course, I miss my first two classes. (Hey, it's senioritis at its worst!) Instead, I spent the morning starting a wedding website (stay tuned) and packing up my room. I took the two decorations I had up down, and cleaned out my "everything" drawer so it's in a box ready to be moved into my car. I'm going to make a trip home on Tuesday to bring a load down after my internship. Luckily I'm going to a Nuggets game after that with Maddie and Vic, so that makes me suuuper happy. Then I'll head back up here on Wednesday to have a girl-date with Jenn and my last final on Thursday. Crazy. Less than a week, and I will be a College Graduate. Time FLEW!!! I remember my first Friday at school, we watched High School Musical 2 in Allison's dorm room. haha. Started it off right for sure. It went by so fast, but I changed so much. Crazy. I feel flustered because my room seems so messy and I don't know what to do with everything. I'm the type of girl that gets stressed out if any of my space is messy. I blame it on my mother.

Today I have to turn in my locker and shirt for Pilates. Then we're having a party in my Sign Language class. That is how I get to spend my last day of college...worked out well I'd say. :)

I'm getting excited again to move to Utah. I'm happy I get to live with Becki Porter, she's pretty hilarious. I'm excited I get to borrow a bed, until I get married and move in with Zach. I just have to get a dresser and stuff. Who even knows. I have never felt so...helpless? I don't know the word I'm looking for. I guess like I have nothing, and know nothing. This is going to be a crazy adventure. I really hope it suits me well. I go back and forth with it all the time! I'm excited because I know it's going to change me in a way God intends. I am so naive, and I really don't feel like a grown up. This is going to help me take charge more, and pay my own bills, and learn about budgeting and all the boring stuff.

I'm really excited to be best friends with God in the process too. I already know this is going to happen, because anytime I'm in an unfamiliar situation, God is my closest friend. I hate that when I'm comfortable, Him and I aren't as great. I've struggled in loving Him most this past year, and I'm excited to really cling to Him and see Him come through. I can't believe He still loves me, after so many times I don't choose Him.

I keep thinking about my family, and how much I will miss them. My sister is going to Korea for a year to teach English, and won't even get to be there for my wedding. I am so proud of her though. I feel bad for my little sister, that her two sisters are leaving at once. She takes that stuff hard. I'm sad for my mom and dad who have to face all this too. I am sure it's hard not to take personally, but they have been so supportive!

Wow, this is the most up and down entry ever. Time to keep packing and getting ready for school. :)