do you ever feel like you wish you could take something back? i know i do. i have many times, but i feel desperate right now.
i have sinned against the Lord my God. (i mean, i do it every day, plenty of times a day.) i hate that i broke His heart. i hate that i live in this earthly body that can't help but sin, when my heart doesn't want to. anyways, that's not even the point.
the point is what Jesus has done in spite of this. He's cancelled it. He's taken every little dark sin in my life and erased it. He cancelled my debt, and i had a lot.
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. -John 15:13
i really am at a loss of what to say. i believe it's true. i believe i'm clean in Jesus. but i can't help but still hurt. God does the healing, he's in the business of healing hearts because He's the ONLY SOURCE OF HOPE. i'm learning that so much more than i ever have before, and for that, i am thankful.
tonight i am just so humbled, and thankful for the grace my God endlessly grants to me. He chose to find a solution to this disease called sin. and i know my life will be filled with continuous mess ups, but i can rest in my salvation, and my future in Heaven with God. i long to be Home with Him.
Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved." -Acts 4:12
i just want God to have all the glory in every aspect of my life. and so i say, my life is no where near perfect, i don't have it all together and i don't know any Christian who does. but i know that the secret is Jesus, and if you don't know Him i assure you to get to know Him. i am so thankful for His sacrifice, and i know i am so undeserving of it but He gave it to me anyways, with a glad heart.
The heart of God is beautiful.
Amen Megs!
ReplyDeleteGrace is something I think I just brush by too easily sometimes. Growing up Christian it's easy to take the most beautiful pieces of God's character and chalk them up to something almost trite. I need reminders like this sometimes to put in perspective how wonderful that Sacrifice was, how much it meant.
I listened to a beautiful piece of a sermon about anguishing for the Gospel. For Jesus' sacrifice. How we need to FEEL what He did on that cross for us and not just push it aside as I so often do. It's totally humbling and convicting to really stop and feel His love and feel His grace and know that in Him I am redeemed by the great Redeemer and nothing can take that away. Thanks for this wonderful reminder and thanks for yours and Zach's repentant hearts, it's encouraging and I love you both for it all the more (if that's even possible)!
Thanks Megs.
-scrib
scrib you're such a good friend. God is good and i'm glad you'll always be in our lives. it's definitely humbling when we really face how guilty we are before God and remember that He took it all on for us. He's such a lover! :) i love Him.
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