JESUS.

this world is so corrupt and religion is so corrupt and we as humans are so corrupt. depressing start to a blog post, i'm aware of this. i'm struggling with how we skew the image of Christ because we're sinful in nature. i know it's inevitable, but i want Christ to shine through every Christian. i want us all to REALLY love God, and to have a REAL relationship with Him.

i just know God's heart breaks for sin. sin destroys. sin cannot be hidden, it will catch up with us whether in this life or after we die. He sees it all. and i know that there will be justice.

in the meantime i want to focus on myself and my life and make sure that i am REALLY loving people and that i am REALLY loving God. not in a lukewarm or "routine" way. i mean, consumed by Him. i don't want to be indifferent about Christ. and i DON'T want religion. you can take your religion somewhere else. i want a meaningful relationship with my Lord and Savior, my Best Friend, the one who will never let me down. He's the one that i can spill my guts out to and it be a safe place, He's the one that i can send my requests to and know that it was heard, He's the one who has my best interest at heart, He's the one that loves me even though i'm a wretched sinner. He's UNBELIEVABLE. if we all just sat down to think about who He REALLY is and what He REALLY is offering us (so much more than fire-insurance, you guys.) how could anyone ever reject that??

i know this world has distorted the image of Him. i know people will read this and think that's not that God or Jesus they've been exposed to. but it's TRUE. if you don't believe me, read for yourself. the Bible is beautiful and purposeful and most importantly, true. someday we're going to see. and someday we're going to be able to rest in His arms if we choose Him now, and find understanding in anything right now that we just don't understand.

i want Jesus in everything. i want to cast my cares, frustrations, and worries on Him.
i don't want to love Jesus in a routine way, in a distant way. i want to be passionate about Him who died in place for me. and i want to always be pointing to Him. NOTHING ELSE, ever. amen.